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I always have so much to write when I am not writing. I hate how I get distracted so easily. Rome looks like a good place to get some running done. I hope I can sneak some time to write some time later tonight… get my thoughts straightened out a little.

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In the HK airport while waiting for my flight to Vancouver. I’ve been meaning to write but didn’t really get the chance to while I was back home. I did have a lot of time to reflect and I have a couple of goals for the month of August. I hope I can carry some of these goals forward for the rest of my life but I’ll keep them small for now.

I think being at home made me realise how much I love my parents and despite our conflicts, I really do love them. I feel that I should make more effort to make them happy like they have done for me.

August goals:

1. Start each day with a bottle of water and a bowl of fruit

2. 30 min run

3. 500 crunches, 10 30 sec planks

4. practice spanish

5. capture every moment (especially in Europe)

6. be positive

7. block out all negativity

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“You are, after all, what you think. Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions.”

Things have been moving pretty slowly since getting back to Vancouver and it is making me a very discontented person that I’m starting to get really annoyed with myself. I feel like I have all these brilliant ideas that I do not follow through with & I think what I really need is a list of things I need to do instead of letting my mind wander aimlessly thinking about pointless things I have no control over. Its time I have grounded goals and do something purposeful with my time every day instead of wasting it away. 

 

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Turning 21

I feel that as I turn 21, I need to start writing more and keeping a diary/ log book of my daily experiences. I realized the biggest mistake I made during my late teen years was not merely letting my mind controlling me but rather taking my life itself for granted. I feel that it gets dangerous when that happens and you’re not conscious of what you are doing with your life and you merely let life go by & that is precisely what I did. It wasn’t that I lost sight of my goals, I had completely forgotten that there was something called goals. I made huge mistakes and right now, looking back, i honestly hate who I was back then. I am very thankful for the opportunities and chances I have been given and I never ever want to take them for granted ever again.

Hence, as I turn 21, I have a few goals:

1. Exercise for at least 20 minutes a day

I believe this 20 minutes a day will help me straighten myself out. I also want to be in better health and better shape.

2. Pick up yoga

I have always wanted to pick up yoga. I think meditation helps & I want to be a calmer, happier person.

3. Achieve 2400 on the SATs

I think it is achievable if I put my mind to it and I want to prove myself.

4. Be honest, Be open

I regret not being as honest as I should have been with my parents and I don’t want to continue living my life that way.

5. Take part in writing competitions (Will elaborate more on the next post)

I’ve always loved writing, & I think it will stimulate my brain in a good way if I start thinking about issues presented in these competitions.

6. Write more about my travels

I’m blessed enough to be able to travel quite a bit this year & I want to document and share those memories. I like the idea of capturing memories and I want others to be able to experience it through my words and pictures.

7. Read more: starting with a Goodreads list & books on my bookshelf:

1. Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3. Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
4. Harry Potter series – JK Rowling
5. To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee 
6. The Bible
7. Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four – George Orwell
9. His Dark Materials – Philip Pullman
10. Great Expectations – Charles Dickens
11. Little Women – Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles – Thomas Hardy
13. Catch-22 – Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit – JRR Tolkien (uh-hum! Didn’t exactly finish this one for SOME reason)
17. Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks
18. Catcher in the Rye – JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveller’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch – George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby – F Scott Fitzgerald
23. Bleak House – Charles Dickens
24. War and Peace – Leo Tolstoy
25. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26. Brideshead Revisited – Evelyn Waugh
27. Crime and Punishment – Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28. Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck
29. Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland – Lewis Carroll
30. The Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame
31. Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy
32. David Copperfield – Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia – CS Lewis
34. Emma – Jane Austen
35. Persuasion – Jane Austen
36. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe – CS Lewis
37. The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini 
38. Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis De Bernieres
39. Memoirs of a Geisha – Arthur Golden
40. Winnie-the-Pooh – AA Milne
41. Animal Farm – George Orwell 
42. The Da Vinci Code – Dan Brown
43. One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
45. The Woman in White – Wilkie Collins
46. Anne of Green Gables – LM Montgomery
47. Far From The Madding Crowd – Thomas Hardy
48. The Handmaid’s Tale – Margaret Atwood
49. Lord of the Flies – William Golding
50. Atonement – Ian McEwan
51. Life of Pi – Yann Martel 
52. Dune – Frank Herbert
53. Cold Comfort Farm – Stella Gibbons
54. Sense and Sensibility – Jane Austen
55. A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth
56. The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57. A Tale Of Two Cities – Charles Dickens
58. Brave New World – Aldous Huxley
59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time – Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61. Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
62. Lolita – Vladimir Nabokov
63. The Secret History – Donna Tartt
64. The Lovely Bones – Alice Sebold
65. Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas
66. On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67. Jude the Obscure – Thomas Hardy
68. Bridget Jones’s Diary – Helen Fielding
69. Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie
70. Moby-Dick – Herman Melville
71. Oliver Twist – Charles Dickens
72. Dracula – Bram Stoker
73. The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett
74. Notes From A Small Island – Bill Bryson
75. Ulysses – James Joyce
76. The Bell Jar – Sylvia Plath
77. Swallows and Amazons – Arthur Ransome
78. Germinal – Emile Zola
79. Vanity Fair – William Makepeace Thackeray
80. Possession – A. S. Byatt
81. A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens
82. Cloud Atlas – David Mitchell
83. The Color Purple – Alice Walker
84. The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro
85. Madame Bovary – Gustave Flaubert
86. A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry
87. Charlotte’s Web – EB White
88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven – Mitch Albom
89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes – Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90. The Faraway Tree Collection – Enid Blyton
91. Heart of Darkness – Joseph Conrad
92. The Little Prince – Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93. The Wasp Factory – Iain Banks
94. Watership Down – Richard Adams
95. A Confederacy of Dunces – John Kennedy Toole
96. A Town Like Alice – Nevil Shute
97. The Three Musketeers – Alexandre Dumas
98. Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – Roald Dahl
100. Les Miserables – Victor Hugo

Its sad I’ve only really read 3 of the 100 books on the list properly. I’ve half read some of them. But that too is embarrassing. I plan to change that this year.

8. Master Spanish.

Visiting Medellin made me realize how beautiful the language is and how I have the aptitude to learn it if I put my mind to it. I think learning a new language opens one up to alternative perspectives and immerse themselves more in a culture. I want to be able to converse well in Spanish by the time I go to Spain this August.

9. Be neat.

I’ve always been a messy person & my mum has always been nice enough to clean up after my mess be it in terms of a physical mess or emotional mess.

10. Treasure and be there for those who are there for me (My parents, brother, Samir) & not get too affected by the rest who disappoint me

I realised as I turn 21 & looking back on events in the past, no one except for those who really care about you, will be happy for you when things are going great.

 

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I want to start blogging again now that the summer is drawing near. I want to be conscious and brutally honest with myself and my thoughts. I want to look back as I read these posts and be able to imagine what I must have been going through when I was writing that post.

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PPS

I have both my Philo and Polsci finals tomorrow and the last thing I probably should be doing right now is blogging. However, I want to remind myself the importance of tomorrow’s papers and how I should leave those papers knowing I gave them my all.

I came to Vancouver telling myself I wanted to be better, to not make the same mistakes I made in the past and to never ever give up no matter how trying the situation might seem. I think I can safely say, I have achieved that on so many levels. However, me getting into the school of my dreams lie on how tomorrow’s papers go. I think it has been a great semester for the most part, I deserved every single grade I got (well most of them) and I have toiled and worked hard for them. Its strange little did I know I would feel this jaded as I turned 21. I can’t believe I am actually getting married withing the next year and honestly, more than celebrating those milestones I think I am just thankful to have supportive people in my life to just make my day. I want my mum’s hard work all these years to come to good use and I want her to attend my UBC graduation happy, I want to be the reason behind her smile.

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